Seriously. It's almost been 2 years since I've written on this blog and to be honest, I have kind of forgotten about it. Life has grabbed a hold of me and let me tell you, it's taken me on a wild ride that I never saw coming and yet, I'm happy to stand where I stand, knowing the things I know.
The funny this is is that while I thought this blog would be a means to an end, a way for me to stay on track, it wasn't. But you know what? It's become a blessing to me today while I was re-reading my thoughts, my fears, and my frustrations over the years about becoming healthy. It's a reminder to me that this isn't just a free ride. It comes with so many ups and downs and thrills and chills.
You know what else is cool? Today I weigh 168 pounds. I started at 263. I'm just a few short pounds from becoming a lifetime member at Weight Watchers. THIS. IS. CRAZY.
You know what else is crazy? My journey started in January of 2012. I met this group of women in the UP of Michigan and they changed my life for the better. They encouraged me and pushed me and gave me ideas to better myself. It has taken me close to 3 years to see myself the way that they have seen me all along and I cannot tell you how eternally grateful I am to those women.
And to you.
I know I have said it a million times over but I know I couldn't have taken this ride without people in my life that pushed me to be better than I am today.
Some people have asked me how I have pushed through and made it this long. LET ME TELL YOU IT IS THE HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE. I am not saying this to scare you because it was the best decision I've ever made but it was something I struggled with day in and day out. I never realized how much I thought about food, enjoyed food, longed for food, was comforted by food, wanted food in social situations, and just how little I was actually moving. My body was a wreck. It had no idea the power of exercise. It had no idea the power of toned muscles and lungs that filled with air on a run. It had no clue of the power of endurance and will of the mind. It had no idea how exhilarating it can all be when you set goals and achieve them.
I'm standing here today on the other side but trust me, I'm reminded again and again that this isn't something that I can simply "be done" with. I know it will be something that I struggle with for the rest of my life and if you're like me, you'll fight this battle too.
And you know...we will win.